Monday, November 17, 2008

Change

I just realized that today is November 17th and in less than a month I'll be home for Christmas Break. I cannot believe that my first semester of college is coming to a close. In the beginning of the class we had to write about "The Girl I Was" and of course I wrote about things that happened in high school, and how I was. I mentioned in my essay about how most of my older friends said things would change, and boy were they right! I came here thinking I would stick to the same people I've known all my life from back home, and we'd always be great friends. Unfortunately distance sucks, and I don't feel as close to some of the people I once was best friends with. Although I've managed to keep in contact with several of my friends from back home, I feel as if I am growing apart from them. I've met a lot of new people up here at WCU and living with them, I consider them a really significant part of my life. I feel closer to some of the people here than people I went four years of high school with. I think maybe because I live with these people and we spend a huge part of our time together.
I think going home over Christmas break is going to be really difficult. I'm worried that relationships with my friends as well as my family have changed within the past few months. I remember my Junior year in high school my Psychology teacher told us that once we moved away from home, coming back would be difficult. I didn't believe her because I thought "home" would always be home. I completely understand what she meant now. I feel as if Cullowhee is my new home. I live here now. The last time I left my house, I told mom that I would call her when I got home, and she looked really serious and said "Emily, isn't this your home?" Part of her was truly joking, yet the other part seemed sad because I've gone off to do different things. I think she was expecting me to be like my sister and stay home all of her life. That is what makes my sister and I two totally different people. She is completely content staying in Lenoir, North Carolina being married and having a family. She is happy. There's no way I could be content in that situation. I want to go places, see things, that's why I am here now. I am loving the experiences I am having here at Western and I look forward to what is to come.

Emily R (Holly's Class)

7 comments:

Unknown said...

I am so stressed out it is hard to believe i have almost completed an entire semester at WCU. I love it here and want to stay. i have enjoyed Holly's Best Of Friends class. I know she is my professor but she feels like an older sister giving advice. It has been encouraging this first semester to be surrounded by other girl who were facing the same new challenges as i have experienced!

User said...

I feel the EXACT same way. Being so far away from my friends and family at home is killing me. Most of the time I refer to Apex (my home town) as home but lately I've been calling Cullowhee my home.

I'm so looking forward to going home for break but as much as I want to go home it'll be a thousand times harder to come back to school at the end to start a new semester

~Jamie Cox

User said...

I cannot believe how fast this semester has gone by either. its insane to think that we only have one more semester then we are sophmores! experiences here at western have been so amazing and i have met some of my best friends here. it is a little sad about losing a few old friendships but i think once everyone gets home for christmas the old friendships will come back and everyone will be close again..atleast i hope so. but i also call cullowhee home now even though i miss charlotte a lot cullowhee is where i live and i love it here. college has been amazing so far and i am ready for more experiences!

User said...

oops i forgot to put my name on that last post! haha
-Catherine Miller

User said...

I agree that time is flying by. But to me home will always be home. A person can have two homes right? Going home is refreshing and I am very excited for break. I have made many new friends here but I have managed to stay very close to my friends from home also. So it's kind of bittersweet.

Danielle (Hollys Class)

User said...

i feel the same way being away from my friends and family is just odd...friendships that i thought would last havent yet ive come to know so many more people and im loving it. but i have noticed that my relatioship with my mom and dad has changed alot to i have said i will call you when i get home and they look at me ike i hurt them i always thought home would always be home but it doesnt feel that way, when im home i almost feel like i am a guest in my own house they use my room as a storage room and nothing is the same its so odd. one semester is over it just makes me wonder how much more things are gona change.
*kelli Mann ~ hollys class

User said...

I cant believe the end of the semester is so close either. I know it will be hard for me to go back home because a lot of my friendships have changed or don't even exist anymore. One of my best friends doesn't even talk to me anymore because she is away for college too and another friend has completely changed(for the worst) since I left. It just feels like a different place now, it doesn't really feel like home anymore.

-ELLIE SCOGGINS-HOLLY'S CLASS