Okay, so, I know I was supposed to blog like a million and a half years ago... but I just kept forgetting. Sorry guys... but here I am now, lol. Okay, so, lately, I've been having a really tough time. Thing 1: My dad and I got in a big fight over fall break within ten minutes of me walking in the door and I didn't even really want to stay there. I pretty much stayed at friend's houses the whole time. Thing 2: My mom is my best friend... but I haven't seen her in months. After I came up here she moved in with her sister in Iowa and I don't know when I'll get to see her again... I don't know if I'm going to have enough money to buy a plane ticket to go see her over winter break. I just got a job at Bogarts up the street so hopefully that'll cover it. I was talking to her on the phone last night and when I hung up I just burst into tears. I felt like a damn idiot because I was with some friends and I just walked away crying. I can't stand not being around her. She the one person who understands me more than anyone in this entire world. I feel so lost without her sometimes... :(( I miss my sister too. She goes to Brevard College like an hour away and I haven't seen her since I saw my mom last. Family means the world to me. My first tatoo is for them [and my grandmother]. Thing 3: One of my mom's friends has AIDS and I don't know how long he's gonna be around. He doesn't exactly live the best life and he doesn't really take care of himself like he should... He just got out of the hospital because he has pnemonia in one of his lungs. I really would love to talk to him and see how he's doing... but every time I even try to talk about it like with my mom or something, I can't help but start crying. I'm afraid that if I do talk to him, I'm just gonna bust out uncontrollably. He moved back to where he grew up in Ohio so it's not like I can just go see him. He's 36 years old and has AIDS. I don't know... sometimes I feel like I just need to suck it up and deal... but then I remember that I'm a girl... and we don't exactly know how to do that, lol. Anyway... I just had to vent. Sorry it took me so damn long to blog. :D
Amber Shipp [Holly's class]
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I hope everything gets better for you. I understand how you feel about your mom. I hate being away from mine all the time. I talk to her everyday & that makes me feel like a kid but I dont really care. Family is improtant to me too.
Megan (Hollys Class)
I miss my bestie too! I know it's super hard, but hang in there! I hope everything works out for you, and I will keep your mom's friend in my prayers!
Kristy Pannill, Holly's M-W cass
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